Tonight, I am feeling a little sorry for myself. I found out today that the job I was offered as a full time police officer is not going to happen right now. There is a problem with the fact that I'm already an axillary and never filled out a full time application. It sounds ridiculous, but that's a bureaucracy for you. Although I was wondering how in the world I would make everything happen while working on the midnight shift, I was really looking forward to being able to contribute in a significant way to the family income.
On the one hand, I wonder if this isn't just happening because it wasn't right for us. On the other, I am so disappointed. I feel conflicted and confused and sad. Geez!